got tired of ebloggy..and seems like everyone is ditching eblog so..i go with the flow! hahax..

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i seriously believe that the great almighty somewhere in this world is fooling around with my life. coz my current life is totally MESSEDUP! and so i'm super FED UP! i mean what can i do? nothing. only to plan my future. in the 1st place, is there any bright future for me? i doubt so.

okay. i appealed back to AC through netball. whats so big deal? i really thought i was going to get back to AC. maybe i'm too confident. or maybe i tend to listen to those rumors n claims that i will confirm get in. period. the FACT: i didn't get into AC. but seriously thinking. are they mocking my ability? ok, my stamina sucks. but i did well during the trials. and they said they wanted a defender. god. in the end, the unexpected one got in.anw, i'm not talking abt sj. i'm in fact happy for her coz thats where she yearns to go. gd luck to playing in the champions team! muz jiayoux! i'm terribly honest here. i am super bu fu qi lahhs!!!arghx!!! darn that gal!!=[

back to SA. its BAD! 2nd intakers there are redundant. ok, theres some nice ppl there. but not as nice n warm ppl as AC ppl. but of course they are a close knitted bunch of 1st intakers. and i am the LONER there. its like ytd's disco nite was CRAPPY. band/music/venue/ppl sucks. one thing is that i'm only close to one gal in my og. but shes super close with her ex-og. so there she goes running away to her old og. i'm left ALONE in the big hall full of high n jumping kids. describe the feeling to you? indescribable! so there i walked n walked around aimlessly in the hall full of strangers for like 10 mins. den i found a pair of 2nd intake twins fron nanhua. you dunno how happy i was. but they are super unenthu and boring. so we walked out of the hall and sat outside the toilet.........if i didnt talk, there will be slience.

anw, i wasn't in the mood to talk. i was on the verge of crying. juz then i realised how much i took my life for granted. i totally MISS AC!! and i also MISS the netballers..you all wouldn't understand how i felt. although u may think you would.  i'm so so saddened by the fact that i'm the VERY LAST NETBALLER! my results are the worst. i'm all alone in SA.[which happens to be the last jc out of HC,NJ and AC] there is some kind of distance btwn us already..i can juz feel it coming..i'm so so scared la!! i can SWEAR with my life that i LOVE n MISS the netballers more then anyone of them will!!

there this GIGANTIC UNCERTAINTY here in my life.surviving thru the next 2 years is a chore. i doubt my mental ability to cheng xia qu..

welcome to my bullshitty world! 

finally! acjc's 18th FUNORAMA is officially over! yAy!!! i'm so so happy....wheeee......funorama is super FUN!!!i love the food..i love the games..i love the haunted house at lt6!!woohoo...damn scary..but a fun experience!hehex..

anw, 1sbIX's games stall was not bad..my tweety bird attracted lotsa attention..hahax..all thanks to my games reps-mark n kaikiat..the food stall was okay..sold most of the meesiam!=]

i'm official BROKE right now..lolx..spent loads of money on food ytd..but i'm HAPPY!!i simply LOVE the FRIED MARS BARS!!the choc melts in ya mouth..ahahahahax..went to nydc ytd with pris..omg..the meatballs there are humongous!! love the window seats! can see ppl walking ard..then slacked at haagen daaz after that..so sad..the melon icecream that i really really wanted wasn't out yet.. sulk..i swear pris has the weirdest combi of icecream ever! brownie+ custardice-cream+ greentea ice-cream! funny right? but the green tea ice cream is good..i'm gonna visit the shop soon man..i want my melon ice-cream!!hehex..

=D

here are some of the pics i took these few days...
http://uk.pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/nathx89/my_photos

i'm not sure if i have recovered from yesterday but i learnt to accept whatever thats presented to me. or rather i have to. i guess that came to me as a totally UNpleasant surprise. i swear i did not expect it to turn out this way. not at all. i wasn't really that nervous when i stepped forward to receive the pink slip of paper from mr chow. 1st: he gave me a sort of disgusted/disppointed look. 2nd: i saw the big FIVE word on top of the list. 3rd: i knew everything's not going right.-----------
i took quite a long time to actually count my L1R5 and to absorb everything thats happening around me.everyone around me is looking quite happy upon receiving their results. apparently, i'm their opposite. i didn't really know how to respond until i saw gaby. i just cried. hell lot i cried, it never seemed to stop. did not really know my reason for crying. disappointment. uncertain of my future. worrying about my future solitude.-------------
congrats to everyone who had scored fantastic results. i'm full of admiration. finally your hardwork had paid off.wishing you all the best in your respective jcs.------------
to those who got undesirable results, cry as long as you want. but you have to make a promise not to shed a single tear from the very moment you stop crying. sure there are disappointments. life is unpredictable. you are not a loser. just have to make sure you won't repeat the same mistake ever again. never ever. show the people at cambridge that you are not what they thought u to be. like me. i wanna prove to all the cambridge english examiners that my english standard is not that bad to earn a freaking FIVE. sense the sacarsm and anger there. i'm so gonna prove them wrong!-----------
results aside. i'm super happy for all the netballers for they have gotten very good results. i'm the last of all netballers. how great. to my juniors. good job. whether a1 or a2. it really doesn't make a difference. just look at yf. perfect example!-----------
to my batch of netballers. i love you all to the fullest. i know most of you or actually all of you will be in njc/hcjc. good for you. i'll really really miss all of you...omg, i'm crying again. but really. you all have been in my life for the past 4 years. its damn hard to imagine life without all of you for the next 2 years..maybe after 2 years we won't be that close anymore. for i am alone in ac and all of you together in nj.. total nightmare! i'm freaking out..promise me you all won't ever forget me kaes..i dun wanna be all alone... ='(

a week gone and i've made lotsa new frens!!hehex..actually acjc's not a bad place that most thought to be..sure there are snobbish ppl..but i tell ya..they are really friendly..i mean everyones juz smiling all day and that really warms ya heart..was quite expected to see tons of acsI and acsBR guys ard..not to mention chij n mgs gals..so i felt quite wierd wearing rv uniform entering the hall..so outta the place la..but when we get into out respective ogs..its totally diff!! let me intro u my clan of the lost st. helens!!

CARNSIR is the best of all the 4 clans man..hahax..the 4 clans are divided by thier diff themes la..carnsir is da planety/starwars kind..celahir is those harrypotter/fantasy kind..glofindel is abt detectives/jamesbond..while kyofu has the horror theme..uber cool rite?and i tell ya..ac's dramanskit is damn good la..veh funny..

oh ya..i belong to the probe sending og--[andalite]..my og's really HOT!! my ogls are supper fun la..beatrice beverly and nathaneal..now to my og..lets see..3acsI guys..2acsBR guys..1commonwealth guy, 1 jurongsec guy n 1 maris stella guy..2 mgs gals, 2cres gals, 2rv gals,1 nhs gal, 1nygs gals and a st.nicks gal..super funky bunch of ppl!!

there were tons of SOAP-SMEARING, MUD-SLAPPING, FLOUR-RAISING games..totally DIIRTY!!had a helluva great time playing!!wheeeeeee.....not to forget the 2 dances..super sae lorx..and the carnsir cheers!!! *we are gonna send the probes to urAnus!!* also, the 4 hour og ytd really bonded the og together..enjoyed the delicious swensen food at hollandV..get to know more abt my dear og mates..lolx..shawn is soo cute and strong..sixiu is sucha cool swimmer and ahlian..lolx..felicia's damn sweet..and xia is seriously a POSER but also talented artist..hahax..

ytd's campfire was da highlight man!!although it rained heavily..it was wet n wild!! imagine dancing in the badminton hall at 1130? hot!! acjc's dance is damn cool la...i wonder how they ever choegraph such dances..the atmosphere is sUUUPER HIGH!!! crazy ppl screaming at the top of their lungs..the whole thing ended like 1130..it was late..but my og still went to kap to slack till 1+am..the whole grp den went to mich's house to sleep la..poor me had to go home..kena scolded by my mum for breaking my curfew..arghx..but nvm..at least i had a FUNKY time with my og..hahahahahahax...=D

ben&jerry rawkx!!hehex..all thanks to the generous nigel..i ate a total of 9 diff flavours of ice-cream..*ultimate bliss*=]had a great time countdowning with 2E peeps at suntec..though i was initially cheated to waiting 30mins for nobody at jemrt..=X saw zyun&mates at crystal jade..nice beef lamian!!hehex..den waited for the latecomers and slacked right outside B&J..including all the curious stares of tons of ppl at the bunch of crazy childish peeps..lolx..

den we squeezed all the way thru crowds of ppl the reach the riverside..no doubt we felt LOST..budden we got quite a nice place to sit and rot for 1 1/2 hours to countdown..we were fantastic spectators..spotting shuaiges among the busy crowd..watching sicko banglas spraying and shouting ard..the poor cisco officers pleading the ppl to climb down the walls..wad a sight!=)

then the "oohs and aahs" began..there was nothin but laser lights..lolx..a while later..the burst of fireworks!yeah..happy new yr!!1st thing in the new yr that i felt unhappy was that there was this huge tree blocking half of my view of the magnificent fireworks..darn..=(anw it is 2006 so i shld be happy..=D

aft dat we walked to fullerton hotel to wait for shichun's bro..darn fullerton hotel..dun let us get in..so shihui yvonne shichun n i stood beside the lobby and sang to all the caucasians waiting for their supposingly high class limo taxis..saw loads of spgs..not to forget many foreign hunks..got a suppeer looonngggg time to get home..coz we waited for abt an hour..hehex..so reached home liked bout 220am..to get scolded by mum..hahax..

in all..it was a FUN experience!!!a lesson to learn though..next time u go countdown..remb to wear ya prom dress..coz u can get into any hotels den..lolx..dumb fact..=D  

this yr's christmas was kinda too quiet..
sighx..

MERRY christmas to everyone!